I've come to realization that in this time of the year I become anxious. Today you're that girl I'm in love with, but you won't respond to it, later I will be a good friend for you and later on, nothing more... Whatever, I don't even know why do I care. I feel jealous, but I didn't want to feel anything to begin with. Sadly... I feel more lonely than before. But I must be strong, I must master myself, be the owner of my feelings, 'cause I don't need this, I hate it... I don't deserve it.